Sweet Sorrow

"Parting is such sweet sorrow" as said by Romeo in Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. Last night, we had a send off party for Bel. It made me think of leaving and how it is bittersweet. Bitter because distance may cause two friends to become complete strangers and sweet for I know that leaving means something better for that person who is leaving. Leaving is not easy. You leave those who are dear to you. Then I recall on those who have left me and those I left. My older sister was for me the greatest loss in our family. She died when I was 8y.o. She was just 12. This has left me wounded yet after all those years that have gone by, I have completely healed. Parting is one rudimentary of life. People come and go everyday. We are left with no choice but to welcome these changes. For those who have left fare thee well... For the people whom I have left in my past, I'm sorry but my purpose was to make myself better. I hope and pray for courage and strength to accept whatever departures that I will be facing in my life. ©

Me as of Now

Me as of now? Who am I now? What have I become?When I think of who I am now, I think of what I've been through. For the past months I've been through a roller coaster ride my life. 


I've learned that no matter how you plan out your life to be, there are things you can't control. 


It reminded me that I was only human. 


As for the heartbreak, yes, I've lost him. He decided to leave me and go with another girl. He said it was because of distance but I know it was a poor excuse. I admittedly became sad because of what he did. I am only human and I really did love him. I was a shipwreck then, so devastated with what he had decided upon.


Thanks to my family, friends and of course God, I am slowly picking myself up and I've come to realize that I deserved somebody better. 


As I bid farewell to our memories, I open my door to the world of new opportunities, I am now seeing a lot of things. With the experience of a reality show audition, I've started to place high regard on myself. I know in the past years, I've always had negativism to what I could be. Always putting myself down. 


Self-pity was definitely my second nature back then. Now, I realize all the things that I really am, with that I am more strong and brave. I can say that I am ready for another batch of tests God has in store for me. 


For as long as I have those who love me, I'll never give up. I'll make the best out of my life.


 As for love, heartbreaks are there but I know one day, the real prince will reveal himself to me. I know that it won't be the ideal ending of "happy ever after" but I know when the right time comes I will be in love with a prince that will be with me throughout my lifetime.This is me as of now, alone but not lonely, wounded yet continues to fight, fallen but still optimistic and ready for new challenges in this lifetime.