Just like any ordinary day, I woke up late, did my daily routines, and here I am saying goodbye to another day. It feels like nothing ever happens to my life.
Nothing exciting or weird. Just another day. Sometimes it feels like I must not be special. I feel like I have no contribution to this world. I feel so low and so useless. Everyday I go to school and try to earn good grades but I'm not yet contented. I feel as if a dark abyss is in me that I feel so incomplete.
Some may say that I should not feel this way because I have family and friends and that I should be more than thankful to have the best in this world, to have a good life but should I really be thankful? Everyday I live a safe life I grew up not taking risks, trying to please others and sometimes even sacrificing what I want and love for them.
I feel like a robot everyday doing routines again and again. I'm tired of this type of life. I want to be free of the limits that society has placed upon me. In a way I'm a prisoner of myself.
Dictating to myself what I should feel rather than doing what I want. Great philosophers were right when they said that there should be balance between care for others and for self and that I should also care for the world but how can I do such thing? How can I solve this dilemma? I may belong to the world but of what importance am I to others?
Yes I may have friends but they can't always be there for you like what most cliches about friendships are. In the end the only friend you've got is yourself. Some say you need someone a person to love you to make you happy but I have a lot of persons in my life but none of them makes me fully happy. Maybe it is in faith that I have to find happiness or maybe I need to love a special person to be happy. I really don't know but as long as I haven't found the answers yet, everyday will just be like any ordinary day to me.
Nothing exciting or weird. Just another day. Sometimes it feels like I must not be special. I feel like I have no contribution to this world. I feel so low and so useless. Everyday I go to school and try to earn good grades but I'm not yet contented. I feel as if a dark abyss is in me that I feel so incomplete.
Some may say that I should not feel this way because I have family and friends and that I should be more than thankful to have the best in this world, to have a good life but should I really be thankful? Everyday I live a safe life I grew up not taking risks, trying to please others and sometimes even sacrificing what I want and love for them.
I feel like a robot everyday doing routines again and again. I'm tired of this type of life. I want to be free of the limits that society has placed upon me. In a way I'm a prisoner of myself.
Dictating to myself what I should feel rather than doing what I want. Great philosophers were right when they said that there should be balance between care for others and for self and that I should also care for the world but how can I do such thing? How can I solve this dilemma? I may belong to the world but of what importance am I to others?
Yes I may have friends but they can't always be there for you like what most cliches about friendships are. In the end the only friend you've got is yourself. Some say you need someone a person to love you to make you happy but I have a lot of persons in my life but none of them makes me fully happy. Maybe it is in faith that I have to find happiness or maybe I need to love a special person to be happy. I really don't know but as long as I haven't found the answers yet, everyday will just be like any ordinary day to me.
