Sweet Sorrow

"Parting is such sweet sorrow" as said by Romeo in Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. Last night, we had a send off party for Bel. It made me think of leaving and how it is bittersweet. Bitter because distance may cause two friends to become complete strangers and sweet for I know that leaving means something better for that person who is leaving. Leaving is not easy. You leave those who are dear to you. Then I recall on those who have left me and those I left. My older sister was for me the greatest loss in our family. She died when I was 8y.o. She was just 12. This has left me wounded yet after all those years that have gone by, I have completely healed. Parting is one rudimentary of life. People come and go everyday. We are left with no choice but to welcome these changes. For those who have left fare thee well... For the people whom I have left in my past, I'm sorry but my purpose was to make myself better. I hope and pray for courage and strength to accept whatever departures that I will be facing in my life. ©

tOrN

Torn: a verb in past tense which means something is divided or cut into parts.As for me it means being caught in a dilemma.

How do you deal when you are torn between two important things? First, you love something or it could be someone, but it's a feeling something not certain. Next, your mind tells you to do the exact opposite.

In this case who should rule over?

The heart or the mind? I know most people would say it should be a balance between both. It is such a cliche. Maybe it is so hard to balance it especially when they are contraindications. I hate being in a dilemma and sad to say I have been stuck in this dilemma for almost four years. I have to admit I am a coward. Although I keep advising my friends to follow what they think is right but for me I only preach. I have chosen to live on the safe side. I have never ever taken a risk in my life. Quite sad I know,but then again,WHY SHOULD I TAKE THE RISK? When I'm living a good life. Risking for something is stupid when you already have something stable right? I don't think that way now. Yet, I am afraid in taking such a big leap and falling flat on my face. When you take the risk it is not only a feeling but it is a way for giving your soul a certain degree of freedom. Until now, I don't know if I'll lay everything on the line for a maybe foolish dream but until I gain enough courage and until I'm not certain if I will remain in my situation. I await for a miracle to come. If it never comes maybe I'll keep on living only half of my life. If it will not come in this lifetime,maybe I'll just wait in the next life to come. My soul then awaits for it to be complete and for it to experience freedom.....

Of Soulmates and friends

How do you know? An ageless question which has been haunting us girls... We don't know who's meant for us.. A teacher once said that you'll know and you'll feel it. You can't let him out of sight. As for friends. We need to cherish them and have fun every time we have the time. You know that change is not the only constant thing in this world. Love is one constant phenomena we all experience.