Me as of Now

Me as of now? Who am I now? What have I become?When I think of who I am now, I think of what I've been through. For the past months I've been through a roller coaster ride my life. 


I've learned that no matter how you plan out your life to be, there are things you can't control. 


It reminded me that I was only human. 


As for the heartbreak, yes, I've lost him. He decided to leave me and go with another girl. He said it was because of distance but I know it was a poor excuse. I admittedly became sad because of what he did. I am only human and I really did love him. I was a shipwreck then, so devastated with what he had decided upon.


Thanks to my family, friends and of course God, I am slowly picking myself up and I've come to realize that I deserved somebody better. 


As I bid farewell to our memories, I open my door to the world of new opportunities, I am now seeing a lot of things. With the experience of a reality show audition, I've started to place high regard on myself. I know in the past years, I've always had negativism to what I could be. Always putting myself down. 


Self-pity was definitely my second nature back then. Now, I realize all the things that I really am, with that I am more strong and brave. I can say that I am ready for another batch of tests God has in store for me. 


For as long as I have those who love me, I'll never give up. I'll make the best out of my life.


 As for love, heartbreaks are there but I know one day, the real prince will reveal himself to me. I know that it won't be the ideal ending of "happy ever after" but I know when the right time comes I will be in love with a prince that will be with me throughout my lifetime.This is me as of now, alone but not lonely, wounded yet continues to fight, fallen but still optimistic and ready for new challenges in this lifetime.

The Art of Letting Go

Live every moment of your life.

People often times dwell on the negativism that have occurred in their life. They end up living in a small nook in the big room of life. When your life's drenched in sorrow and pain, you just need to look around you. The world won't stop for you to take up the broken pieces back. Time fades. Life is much beautiful if you fill yourself with positivity. Often than not, we misconstrue our lives. We fail to see that there are more things to be grateful about. I hate waking up early in the morning yet I love the morning. It is a reminder that I am still alive and that I still have the opportunity that others don't have anymore. If somebody broke your heart, don't go hating on him/her. Wasting time for a person who doesn't value you will only mean giving part of your precious life. When you're down and out, when you feel the whole world is going against you and when you feel there's no reason for living. You should just let go of it and continue living. You can have a good life if you will it to be. Give yourself a chance to be happy.